GoodBye And Good Riddance


Today is a really difficult day for me.

I really hate goodbyes.

Even when I know it’s time to let go, it’s still really hard.

But sometimes, they must be said. I’ve been putting this one off for a while, and I think I’m finally ready to let go. Thanks for being here for me, it really means a lot.

First of all, I’d like you all to take a moment in remembrance for my addiction to Candy Crush.


OK that’s good.

Candy Crush, you were so good to me for over a year of my life.

In the beginning, things really were so good.

You were there for me through my anxiety, through stress, and through the time that my hypochondriac brain convinced me that I was dying of an arm tumor.

You got me though long meetings, through boring movies, through uncomfortable conversations. You kept me entertained on car rides and while waiting at the doctor’s office. You seemed to keep me sharp and to increase my focus.

We really did have some good times. You threw parties for me every time I advanced a level and encouraged me to be proud and share my accomplishments with my friends.


It wasn’t until about a 2 months ago that I realized that things had taken a turn for the worse in our relationship.

More and more often, you had been urging me to spend my hard earned money on you. I gave in a few times because that’s what co-dependent partners do, but eventually I didn’t have any more to give. Still, you kept pestering me to spend 5 more dollars under the illusion that there would be some great payoff.

I finally got to the point where I was forced to let you go for a while. It wasn’t my choice at the time, who knows, maybe it was fate.

I guess you could say we got to a dead end in our relationship.

No really. I beat your final level.  The Coveted Level 845.

It was both one of the happiest and saddest moments of my 32 years of life. I didn’t know anyone else who had gotten so far with you.  I felt like a winner.

I also felt like a major loser.

For the first time in over a year, we took a break.

It was during that time alone that I was able to realize how destructive our relationship had become. You didn’t want me to have friends or to enjoy the life that was happening around me. Even when we were apart, you were constantly reminding me that you were there, waiting for me to give you attention.

A few weeks later I was alerted that you had new levels. You urged me to come back to you, enticing me with lives and free days of unlimited play.

I was tempted, yes…. but I did not come running back.

It has now been a month since we last spoke, and I’m ready to tell you that it’s really over. I am deleting you from my phone and it will be like you never existed.

Goodbye Forever!
Goodbye Forever!

I’m sure I’ll still get reminders from Facebook that you are still around, that other people are thoroughly enjoying their time with you, but I will try not to let it bother me.

I wish you the best of luck, Candy Crush.

There will always be a little sweet spot for you in my heart.

Have you had to let go of any addictions or habits? ARE YOU A CANDY CRUSH ADDICT?


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  • Jenn @ Business, Life & Design

    Lol!!! I avoided candy crush for a long time because it seemed so mindless and I hate when people send me Facebook invites for games. But then… I visited my grandmother and she was stuck and asked for help and I realized it’s a strategy game and not mindless at all and then I was hooked! But I quit long before the final level. After a month of struggling with one level (somewhere in the low hundreds), it was just frustrating and not fun anymore. I’ve always wondered how many levels there are, so I’m glad I read this post, because now I know. Too many. 😛

  • SuzLyfe

    PEACE OUT CANDY CRUSH. I get this way with gum sometimes. And certain foods. Like, just out of hand. I have a feeling some people are like that with PB, though I am not. I am basically at that point with my cornbread muffins. I have so many of them every day. #facesmack get it together!!!
    OOHH an dthis was totally me with the Sims.

  • Mwa

    I used to be addicted to a similar game – a Hello Kitty variant – and had to give it up when I started to find finishing my level more important than cooking for my children. Or running to them when they fell. You get the picture. It was so hard to delete the game! I know what you’ve gone through… :-)

  • Bourbon & Lipstick

    This is GOLD. I laughed so hard! Somehow I never started playing this… Even with the hundred Facebook invites. I had a codependent relationship with FarmVille a few years ago and I’m still recovering… You go, girl!

  • Carissa

    You are lucky you didn’t let yourself get in so deep! It was so hard to quit!

  • Carissa

    Oh my gosh i think i would be that way with your cornbread muffins. I still have the recipe saved and am hoping to try them this weekend with some turkey chili! I never played sims but i watched my mom get addicted to second life, and that’s one of the reasons I didn’t want to have a game in my life!

  • Carissa

    Haha it is! I’m glad I’m not alone! It feels like something is missing from my life but I’m already so much more productive!

  • Carissa

    Haha thanks. You are lucky you never started playing , it’s such a time suck! Good for you for conquering your addiction!

  • Lora

    HAHAHA! I deleted candy crush a while back because it just drove me nuts! I go through phases where I am really, really into a game and then I just want nothing to do with it and I delete it.

  • Diana

    I get supper addicted to a game for about a month tops, then am over it. I did enjoy candy crush for a while, but got over it when I couldn’t get past a certain level. I read last week there was a guy who basically broke his thumbs by playing candy crush for 16 hours a day for a month straight. Now that’s a serious addiction.


    have never played it because i would be obsessed! btw the post today i mentioned where to get the products and gave a link :)

  • Biana Perez

    This is too funny! I was seriously obsessed with candy crush when it came out and then just had to stop cold turkey!!! xo, Biana –BlovedBoston

  • Dance With A Dolly

    Ha! There are 845 levels??!! Holy crap! I only think I made it to ninety-something….Now I’m embarrassed and will be spending the rest of the day trying to beat some levels.

  • Kersten

    OMG. The beginning of this post was really so sad that I got a little worried for a moment! Hope you get over this hard breakup as fast as possible 😀

  • Carissa

    I’ve never in my life had any sort of game I was addicted to before this. I never even really liked video games all that much on my old school nintendo!

  • Carissa

    I didn’t think i would ever get hooked like i did! I never really played anything else in my life!

  • Carissa

    Ah thanks Elle! I missed that! And you should never play! Take it from me!

  • Carissa

    Haha I’m glad I’m not the only one who got a little obsessed!

  • Carissa

    Yeah, I’m so embarrassed that I made it that far. Don’t pick it up. Not if you have anything else to do today!

  • Kathy@RealTalk

    there’s an 800 level? i didn’t even make it past level 32 because it was consuming all of my time and making me tear out my hair!

  • Melissa The Llama

    Good for you!! I started to get sucked into this game but when it came to the point where I needed to spend money to keep going, I gave it up. Lol.

  • Kasey Decker

    you made it all the way to the end?! dayum girl. I got to a point where I was stuck on the same level for a month so I deleted it to make myself feel better…..

  • Kate

    I, too, had to break free from my candy crush addiction. I was fine for about a year, and then I filled the gaping hole it had left in my heart with candy crush soda saga. The first step is admitting the problem.

  • Connie

    Bahahahaha! I LOVE THIS! I gave up candy crush early on. I became so addicted to it, but once I got to a certain level (I believe around 65), I decided to call it quits when I started raging over not being able to beat the level.

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  • Katelin

    I said goodbye to Candy Crush a while ago & my goodness was it a good decision to do so, ha.

  • Emelia @ Dream Big & Buy the S

    hahaha, at first I was like nooooo where are you going?! I’ve never gotten in to that one, and I guess it’s a good thing. :)

  • Allison Renner

    I was addicted to this weird Disney tsum tsum game for awhile. I really put off doing ANYTHING to play. Then I had to reset my phone and lost the game so I kept myself from reinstalling. But, not even trying to s funny here, I think about it often. At least once a week.

    Now I am addicted to this game called 1010. I keep saying I’ll delete it, but…I won’t. I’m not as dependent on it, though – it’s more of a toilet game, or to sit and space out before reading or doing something else.

  • Kati Rose

    I have about 20 versions of Candy Crush/very similar apps and I’m lucky I’ll play them occasionally when I’m waiting/on the train during commute but I get bored of them every few days and switch to the next one. It’s an endless circle. I really should delete them and do something more productive with my time. Good on you for deleting them! Now to spend that hard earned money somewhere else 😉

  • Carissa

    Haha I’m getting there. A few more days and I’ll forget I ever had this relationship.

  • Carissa

    I’m so full of shame that I got this far!

  • Carissa

    Good for you for stopping before you got too sucked in!

  • Carissa

    I should have deleted it months ago. Or a year ago. I should have never downloaded it!

  • Carissa

    Ha it’s so liberating to admit you have a unhealthy relationship with a dumb iphone game!

  • Carissa

    I’m so jealous you were able to quit early on. I could have saved myself so many hours!

  • Carissa

    It really was. You should be proud of yourself.

  • Carissa

    It is a good thing! Don’t ever start!

  • Carissa

    My first inclination was to look up this game, but I won’t do it. I don’t need any other time suckers in my life.

  • Carissa

    Thanks! I know I feel like I’m rich now!

  • Audrey

    Oh man… I’m proud of you for kicking the addition and getting out of that unhealthy relationship. It’s not you, it’s Candy Crush 😉
    (Seriously, though. Do you feel so liberated (and slightly regretful) when you delete apps like that??!)

  • Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird

    I go through that with games. I’m just about to say goodbye to one that I love but… we just can’t anymore.

  • Carissa

    Totally. It’s amazing how much more productive I am. I have so much more time!

  • Carissa

    You can do it!

  • Allison Renner

    I wasn’t even going to name them for that reason alone, but figured if you’re anything like me, NOT knowing the names might drive your curiosity to research and keep guessing if that was the game.

    Or maybe I just have a LOT of time on my hands.

  • Brooke Jones

    Bahaha this is hilarious! Good for you! I still play candy crush, but not like I used to. I think I’m in the 600 level range, but I absolutely refuse to spend any money on it. I tend to pull it out when I have something to do that I don’t really want to do.

  • Caitlin Elizabeth @ This Brune

    Haha! I still love candy crush but I have been able to resist any temptation to spend money on it so I keep playing

  • Alyssa Guttendorf

    Haha ohhh man. Something about Candy Crush… I never caught the bug (not yet anyways), but my dad, who like, barely uses a smartphone, got straight up addicted in less than a week! Power to you for cutting the cord!