Today is a really difficult day for me.
I really hate goodbyes.
Even when I know it’s time to let go, it’s still really hard.
But sometimes, they must be said. I’ve been putting this one off for a while, and I think I’m finally ready to let go. Thanks for being here for me, it really means a lot.
First of all, I’d like you all to take a moment in remembrance for my addiction to Candy Crush.
OK that’s good.
Candy Crush, you were so good to me for over a year of my life.
In the beginning, things really were so good.
You were there for me through my anxiety, through stress, and through the time that my hypochondriac brain convinced me that I was dying of an arm tumor.
You got me though long meetings, through boring movies, through uncomfortable conversations. You kept me entertained on car rides and while waiting at the doctor’s office. You seemed to keep me sharp and to increase my focus.
We really did have some good times. You threw parties for me every time I advanced a level and encouraged me to be proud and share my accomplishments with my friends.
It wasn’t until about a 2 months ago that I realized that things had taken a turn for the worse in our relationship.
More and more often, you had been urging me to spend my hard earned money on you. I gave in a few times because that’s what co-dependent partners do, but eventually I didn’t have any more to give. Still, you kept pestering me to spend 5 more dollars under the illusion that there would be some great payoff.
I finally got to the point where I was forced to let you go for a while. It wasn’t my choice at the time, who knows, maybe it was fate.
I guess you could say we got to a dead end in our relationship.
No really. I beat your final level. The Coveted Level 845.
It was both one of the happiest and saddest moments of my 32 years of life. I didn’t know anyone else who had gotten so far with you. I felt like a winner.
I also felt like a major loser.
For the first time in over a year, we took a break.
It was during that time alone that I was able to realize how destructive our relationship had become. You didn’t want me to have friends or to enjoy the life that was happening around me. Even when we were apart, you were constantly reminding me that you were there, waiting for me to give you attention.
A few weeks later I was alerted that you had new levels. You urged me to come back to you, enticing me with lives and free days of unlimited play.
I was tempted, yes…. but I did not come running back.
It has now been a month since we last spoke, and I’m ready to tell you that it’s really over. I am deleting you from my phone and it will be like you never existed.
I’m sure I’ll still get reminders from Facebook that you are still around, that other people are thoroughly enjoying their time with you, but I will try not to let it bother me.
I wish you the best of luck, Candy Crush.
There will always be a little sweet spot for you in my heart.
Have you had to let go of any addictions or habits? ARE YOU A CANDY CRUSH ADDICT?