I’ve been listening to a lot more music lately.
I’m not sure what comes first the happiness or the music, but listening to music and having an elevated mood seem to definitely correlate for me.
Earliest this week, I was driving to work and They Might Be Giants “Birdhouse in Your Soul” came on my ipod. It immediately brought me back to a time right after college when I was interning at, what was at the time, a small start-up online newspaper. My best friend and I jammed to that song so hard while making the long drive across the metroplex. Of course, I then had to text my friend to let her know I was thinking of her.
It got me thinking of other songs that remind me of certain times of my life.
More specifically of songs that remind me of people.
Even more specifically, songs that I had- at some point- deemed “our song” with a person that meant something to me.
To be clear, most songs that got put in the “our song” category were not chosen by both of us. In fact, most of the time, the receiver of “our song” rarely even knew that they were the object of my undying obsession.
Still, it was fun. It made me dream. It made me feel like I was living in a romantic comedy.
When I think of all the times I set in my room playing a song on repeat on my cd player while dreaming of the possibility of first kisses and a future with someone, it also seems kind of creepy.
It also made me realize that the older I get, the less I assign songs to people. I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve grown jaded in my older years, or if I just don’t allow myself to listen to music with the same romantic mindset as I did when I was younger.
But when I really think about some of the songs I chose, I’m not sure I was listening to the lyrics at all.
For instance, the first song that I can really remember dedicating to someone was Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men’s “One Sweet Day.”
This one was chosen by both my 8th Grade boyfriend and I during a 16 hour bus field trip to New Mexico.
In case you don’t remember it- here is the chorus:
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
One sweet day
Ok. This song is obviously about someone dying. I definitely didn’t realize it at the time, but we were totally dooming our relationship.
Then there was the “our song” for this guy I had a crush on in high school. We never dated, but we had some pretty heavy make out sessions under the blacklights in my bedroom.
For some reason the song I assigned to him was Celine Dion’s “It’s All Coming Back to Me Now.”
I even played it on repeat during one of our makeout sessions.
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can’t remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made
But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that I just have to admit
That it’s all coming back to me
What?! That’s like totally depressing. It’s all about loss and remembering people from your past. Not making it to second base with the hottest guy at school.
Shame on you, past Carissa.
My favorite though, was the song I assigned to the deaf guy I dated after college. He had no idea, because-well- he couldn’t hear, but I still think of him every time I hear Allison Krauss “When You Say Nothing At All.”
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
It’s funny to me now, but I can assure you at the time, I just thought it was perfect for us.
A little over a year into my relationship with Matt, I realized that I was a little sad that we didn’t have a song.
Of course, there was the time I wrote him an email confessing for the first time that I was in love with him… I actually included the lyrics to Alanis Morisette’s “Head Over Feet” to better express the way I felt.
You’ve already won me over in spite of me
And don’t be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn’t help it
It’s all your fault
But since it took him about three weeks to even acknowledge that I wrote him the letter (I know now that I scared him shitless), that song still gives me anxiety and I didn’t want it to be “ours.”
We were driving in the car one day, discussing the fact that we didn’t have a song, and we decided that the very next song that we flipped to on the radio would be “our song.” No matter what it was.
And so that’s how Marvin Gaye’s “Let’s Get it On” became our song.
Let’s get it on, let’s get it on
You know what I’m talkin’ ’bout
Come on baby, let your love come out
If you believe in love
Let’s get it on, let’s get it on baby
This minute, oh yeah let’s get it on
Please, let’s get it on
That was nearly 3 years ago, and I still get excited when I hear it. I really hope that if we ever get married, he’ll agree to let that be our first dance.
What about you, what songs did you deem to remind you of a certain person forever and ever?