I have to say, it feels good to be writing again, especially when I feel like I’m only doing it for my own benefit-because it feels good for me right now.
I used to worry so much about what people would think, or that I always have to be funny, or that I’m going to be judged. I still worry. I’m human. But I don’t care near as much as I used to.
I do appreciate feedback though. And it means more to me than you know. Thanks to those of you who have reached out to me and please keep it coming.
One thing I’ve been really trying to do, especially when I find myself feeling a little down or without something on my mind that I have to get out, is making a list of things for which I’m grateful.
I know, I know.
Shut up already with your psychotherapy bullshit.
Whatever. It helps me to keep things in perspective. Also, I really just enjoy making lists of things that make me happy. It’s much better than making lists of things that make me sad.
Up until a few months ago, I was totally and completely addicted to diet coke. I never bought a case or six-pack of them to keep in my fridge, probably because I didn’t want to admit I had a problem, but I would stop by my friendly local convenient store every afternoon to get my fix.
Only recently did I discover that they had these.
Now I drink Yerba Mate everyday in place of diet coke.
I have no idea if it’s better for me, or if it will end up giving me cancer, but I do know that it is delicious.
I also know that it supposedly has a very high natural caffeine content-which is my main reason for switching over.
This girl needs her caffeine.
Also, it’s delicious.
Stevie and Potter:
It’s no secret I love my doggies. I don’t even think I can express in words how comforting they are to have around.
Sure, I get annoyed that they cost money, chew things, poop all the time, and want constant attention-but I realize that I feel good being able to provide these things for them.
Plus they are freaking entertaining.
Even when Stevie Ticks pees on the floor, she has this way of looking at me all full of shame and my heart just flies.
My grandmother is turning 90 years old in June, and I cherish every second I get to spend with her.
As a child, I loved her for being the kind-hearted, always loving grandmother that would do anything to make me happy.
Now I love her for all of those things, but also for reaching 90 years of life as someone that has my utmost respect and admiration. I love her for being someone who has gone through many hardships and triumphs, while continuing to always be a provider and always acting out of love.
I look forward to our conversations, her insight to life, her advice, and her memories.
I have never met anyone who has loved so deeply and so truly.
I am forever grateful for the memories she has given me.
I feel bad because I know I sometimes take him for granted.
He puts up with a lot from me, after all; and always with patience and love.
At the end of the day, I couldn’t ask for a better partner in life. He makes me laugh, he lets me cry, and he says stupid things that make me feel better every day.
I’m so grateful that he supports my goals and makes me be a better person.
I knew it worked for me in the past, but I didn’t remember how MUCH it did for me as for as dealing with stress and giving me confidence.
I still struggle to get myself there some days, but I always leave feeling refreshed and relaxed.
CJ and Chuy:
Dude. These guys are simply the bestest friends a gal could ask for.
I really look forward to our podcasts each week, and I know that no matter what mood I arrive in, I’ll leave feeling 10 times better.
I know that they will always give me positive feedback and they take my venting in stride.
Check out our latest podcast at Darkives.com
I also have to give a huge thanks to CJ for spending 3 hours this weekend helping me when my car battery decided to DIE.