Little Victories

little victories

Some weeks are just more difficult than others.

This is one of those for me.

I don’t feel inspired. I feel exhausted. Little tasks seem impossible.

I’m struggling to keep to my practice. I haven’t wanted to work out, and it’s causing me to have self-deprecating thoughts.

Still though- as I was driving to work this morning and attempting to meditate on my day ahead-I felt a sense of calm.

I forgive myself.

It’s ok to have bad days. It’s ok to have negative emotions. It’s ok to need to rest and avoid every once in a while.

I just have to be aware of those emotions… aware of how they are causing me to react. THEN I can work on changing my behavior. I can also give my credit for the goals, however small, that I’ve managed to keep.

For instance, I had been avoiding making my yearly gyno appt. for over a month. Why? I have no idea.

I finally realized that having the stress of not calling and making the appointment, was much greater than the 3 minutes it would take to make the call.

In retrospect, it also made the other items on my “to do” list seem a lot more doable. Plus, I was reminded how good it feels to cross something off the list.

Anyway, I’m hanging in there.

This weekend I have plans to see a good friend, and eventually will get back to doing daily yoga and meditations.

In the mean time, you can watch this silly video we made this week at work. 





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