Munday, Monday.

I”m going to be a little brief today as I am busy as hell, but I do have a few things to say.

My blog is entirely too easy to find.

For the most part, it doesn’t really bother me. I talk about it openly and even keep a link to it on my Facebook, one click away from virtually everyone who knows me. (I feel like “virtually” may have been a poor word choice, as I am talking about the people who know me personally, not just virtually…if that makes sense.) I have convinced myself that my family and anyone who has ever known me on a professional level are either way too busy to read my little ole’ site, or they just don’t care.

If you read this  and you know me in real life, you probably know that, even in person I am  extremely candid and am not afraid of sharing personal information when provoked, or even when I’m not.

And if you do know me and I get on your nerves, make you uncomfortable,  you think I’m too crass, or you think I drink too much, then you probably don’t enjoy reading my blog and therefore do not come here except to make fun of my life. If that is the case,  the pleasure is all mine because I live to be laughed at.

So basically what I’m trying to say is that I really hope y’all enjoy what you read and keep coming back for more, but if you don’t- then please do not tell me so because I like to believe everyone likes me.

Never mind.

However, I’ve recently realized there are a few instances where I believe that my beloved blog may be a teensy weensy bit of a problem.

The first thing I worry about is my career.

I purposely do not write about my work.  I’m mostly happy in what I do, but you never know when you’ll end up back on unemployment and needing to look for a job. If that happens, I’m not too excited about potential employees googling my email and finding this site. But I suppose I won’t worry about that until it happens.

The other instance in which I have found that my blog has been a little bit of a hinder, is in meeting new people, face to face.

While I may share way too much information with you about my own personal issues, I choose never to talk about my private relationships, more specifically- dating. This is mostly because that part of my life is incredibly boring and mostly inactive, but also I feel some things should be kept private.

Similarly, I’m not so sure how I feel about the fact that guys that I meet who have the potential for dating, are able to easily read about my idiosyncrasies, or about the time I took out a tampon whilst driving. I don’t want an anonymous blog and I like for my friends to be able to easily read, but I’m a little torn on this matter.

I guess this is something I’ll have to figure out for myself, but let me know if you have any advice.

In other news, I’m trying an experiment this week that may take me away from the computer a bit. Over the last few months I’ve noticed that I have been drinking a little more during the week than I feel is appropriate. Oh no, don’t go saying “I told you so, you have a problem.” This is not the case.

My problem is not of the drinking variety, so much as it is of the sleeping variety. A few hours before I go to sleep, I start to get extremely anxious- and come to the conclusion that I’ll probably never be able to fall asleep until 4 in the morning, I will miss work or be late, and then I’ll end up jobless and living on the streets feigning a crack addiction so I can get welfare. So as to avoid this scenario, I have taken to having a cocktail or a few glasses of wine before bed.

While it does help me to sleep, I don’t want to be one of those people who drinks every single night. I drink on weekends because I enjoy it, not because I need it to have a good time. I don’t particularly enjoy feeling the need to rely on alcohol for anything. And this is why I’m taking a break this week.

I know it’s really not that big of a deal, I’m only going until Halloween… but until then- not a single drop. I would really like to prove to myself that I can sleep like normal people. In order to achieve this goal, (as well as to fit into my Halloween skirt) I am also upping the gym time this week ten-fold. So bear with me if I’m a little grouchy and tired. Working out and not drinking can do that to a girl.

I will leave you today with a little gem from my email archives. A few months ago, one of my guy friends had a misunderstanding with his girlfriend. After many drinks, my friend left the following message on another one of my guy friend’s voice mail. Guy friend #2 then transcribed the message, for my- and now your, enjoyment.

“Fuck you not answering my call, I think you just fucking denied me.  I just wanted to talk about how girls are fuckin…….well they’re just fucking, i don’t know.  They’re just big fuckin vagina’s, i guess they do have vagina’s, but i like vagina’s.  But they’re just big fuckin bitches, a bitch bag, a big bag of douche.  I fuckin hate em, i’m just going to be asexual and jack myself off for the rest of my life.  I’d be a lot happier.  Hope your having fun…..Later”

Happy Monday everyone!

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  • Elliott

    Personally, I don't think I drink enough. With all the travel I do, I'm ALWAYS worried I won't wake up in time.

    And I'm with you on the 'don't blog about work' thing, though I regularly complain about my office itself, with the dripping ceiling. The roofers were here last week, too, and that should resolve itself once the remainder of the water seeps through the cracks.

    Oh, and I may usurp the term 'Frequento Mucho', as I have just discovered it at the bottom of your page.

  • thatkindofgirl

    Dude, figuring out one's personal policy on real-life blog revelation is insanely difficult. Before I started NTKOG, I had a personal blog for about a decade — straight back from the earliest days of blogging — and because blogs were such an unusual concept when I first started it, I had no blogiquette to guide me. Combine that with early-ten tendency toward over-confession, I was a total mess. Using people's first and last names, spilling waaay awkward dating stuff while the people involved could read it, implicating myself in all sorts of illegal, immoral and, uh, mostly untrue crap. I mean, just a whole dang mess.

    The solution: eventually — years too late — I saved all of the old, embarrassing posts as drafts (to keep them for posterity, but to keep them from being google searchable).

    As for current blog, I'm still not sure about stuff like blogging about dating (once I decide I'm ready for that chapter of my life to open again, which hopefully won't be too soon) or how risque the blog will get. But I figure as long as it can't be found by googling my real-life name, that's an improvement.

  • CandiceW

    Damn, never really thought about the future like that. I'm pretty sure if any of my current coworkers stumbled across my site, it wouldn't be any big deal…but in the future? Da well, take me or leave me, I suppose.

  • Carissa Jade

    I don't think I could travel for work, I would have to hire someone to come into my room and shake me awake!

    And I guess I do often complain about the people in the office building (not my office) per se, and more precisely, those with whom I have to share a bathroom with!

  • Carissa Jade

    haha thanks for sharing about your early blog! I can totally imagine what mine would look like if I had kept one… and I probably wouldn't have any friends.

    I am also unsure about how I want to handle dating. I am pretty sure that I won't ever post much about it here… my life has enough in it to give me stuff to talk about without having to go there.

    I think I'm still clear on a first/last name google search.. as long as they stay on the first page of results!

  • Carissa Jade

    Thats probably the best philosophy to take on, and what I try to do!

  • Sean

    I'm really impressed. When I write something like, “I”m going to be a little brief today as I am busy as hell” on my blog, the post would be about two sentences. Your entry is really substantial and a good read for being brief.

    I agree with you about the not-blogging about work. Too many potential problems.

    Anyway, I only started reading your blog recently, but keep up the great work, and feel free to share what you are comfortable in sharing.

  • Carissa Jade

    You know, when I started this post I intended on just posting the transcribed voicemail at the end. Once I started writing, I just kept going and forgot to edit out the top bit about being brief! I've been enjoying your site as well!

  • jenniferalaine

    Yeah so I am definitely anonymous to my family and friends, but after having met so many bloggers in real life I've found myself sensoring the things I say… Especially about hook ups and things. I guess the best advice about meeting guys who can then read about everything online is that whoever reads about the tampon thing and still comes back for more is one that is definitely worth keeping!

  • Sherri

    I firmly believe that we must be somewhat careful when blogging. I tend to use initials when making fun of my friends online. Also, my husband works for the Federal Government and I never want anything *I* do to hurt him in any way. Also, I once ran a fairly popular blog that was pop-culture based and made fun of celebrities. [this was pre-Perez and I wasn't mean about it] I ended up posting several items [okay – 5] which I received Cease & Desist Orders for and caused me unending stress/worry about the future. So, with my new personal blog, I write about my life and friends and thoughts, but I do so with caution, while not being anonymous, per se. [I don't, however, link it to my FB]

    As for sleeping, I used to know that feeling well – of not being able to sleep. Luckily, I now live with a disease for which there isn't a cure and I'm given nice medication to aid in fatigue/joint pain which makes me drowsy. I still don't sleep well, but I'll be the first to admit, I love me some sleepytime drugs.

  • Amber Murphy

    I SO have the same blog concerns as you do, especially in the future-career area. Also, food for thought, if you find the not-drinking leads to more not-sleeping, doctor prescrbied medication is actually cheaper and more effective than the bottle! Not that I know from personal experience or anything. :)

  • Carissa Jade

    Oh me too. I cheated a little last night on my going to sleep naturally and had half an ambien… glorious!! I miss those!!

    Thanks for all the advice! I may come hounding you with some more questions in the near future!

  • Carissa Jade

    Oh I do love doctor meds! I just don't have insurance right now, so I haven't been to the doctor. But it may be worth it…

  • Sherri

    PS: I'm not sure how you feel about this, but there is a yoga DVD that has a lovely morning and PM routine that has helped me tremendously at night. It's not difficult and it's very relaxing!

  • Sherri

    PS: I'm not sure how you feel about this, but there is a yoga DVD that has a lovely morning and PM routine that has helped me tremendously at night. It's not difficult and it's very relaxing!