f.Y.l. Friday!

It seems that recently I  have been using my Fridays as an opportunity to reflect on how much I suck at life. Or on “shitty” things that have happened to me. Or how I’m probably dying.

Today, though… I am determined to make today a good day.  I have no excuse for it not to be!

For one, I’m off work today! I know a lot of you suckers had Monday off to celebrate the dude who discovered America… well I, for one would much rather be off on a Friday when I actually feel good.

Things have been kind of hectic in my life lately, and I haven’t exactly been in the best of spirits.

But by george, I’ve got plenty of reasons why I know this weekend WILL be a success.

First thing this morning, I’m heading to the post office to get myself a passport.  I am a total loser, and I haven’t been out of the country since my senior trip after high school, but I’m tentatively planning on going to Mexico in December- and I’m pumped!

Note to self: Your passport has the potential for being around for the next 10 or so years. Do not make this like your license. Fix your hair. Put on a descent shirt, and for the love of God- at least use spit and a t-shirt to remove the black from under your eyes.


Back to my weekend.

I get to see my sister, for the third weekend in a row! I know that doesn’t sound like a huge deal, but we sometimes go months without seeing each other, and right now there is no one in the world that I would rather spend time with.

Additionally, one of my best friends who I haven’t seen in forever is in town this weekend. This is the girl who sent me a pair of traveling pants a few months ago when I was upset about a boy. Have I mentioned how great my friends are?

At some point this weekend, even if it isn’t until Sunday, I am going to go see Where the Wild Things Are. I have seriously been neglecting the cinema lately, and my insides are starting to ache a little.

On top of that, I am going to the State Fair today! I’ve never been before. I’m going to try my best to resist trying this fried butter that I keep hearing so much about. ( BARRRRFFF) But mostly I want to act like a fourteen year old who just got their braces off and is running around yelling “yippeeeeee,” and riding every ride.  Maybe I’ll even find a dreamy boy to ride the ferris wheel with… and maybe just maybe, he’ll pull the stretch yawn move and put his arm over my shoulder. (Anyone remember that?)

As if I need to add anything to make this weekend even more perfect, but Saturday is homecoming at my college- and I am super excited to get to go back. I’m sure I’ll run into people who I haven’t seen in a long time, and for the first time in a while- I am actually kind of excited about running into people!

I’m usually that girl who puts her head down I see you, and feigns that I don’t recognize you. But today I have a bit of an incentive to be a little more confident.

If you’ve been following me you know that a few years ago I was pretty close to becoming a contestant on The Biggest Loser. For the trip to the final round of eliminations in Los Angeles, they told everyone to pack a “goal” item of clothing. I chose a black dress that I had kept from my senior year in high school. It wasn’t anything special, just a sleeveless dress from Express, but it has become a very important item of clothing for me in the last couple years as I have been struggling to lose weight. I have kept it tucked away at my parent’s house, and every few months I pull it out and try it on… just to see. Well this last weekend I pulled it out from it’s hiding place, you know… just to see…

And sweet baby Jesus!  It actually  fit!!!! I don’t plan on actually wearing this dress anytime soon… or maybe I will… to get my passport picture taken in. You know, just because I can.

Just so you get a better idea as to why I am so excited, you have to realize that I couldn’t even get this dress over my boobies 2 years ago.

I don’t have many pictures left of myself from that size, (because I destroyed them all) but here is the best I can find… And I can’t believe I’m resurrecting this.

yeah, that's me on the left.
yeah, that's me on the left.

But alas, after 2 long years, about a million trips to the gym, and very little bread… Here I am in this very old dress that I have grown a tiny bit obsessed with. (Please ignore my face in this picture. No makeup+no sleep= kinda scary.)


Welp, I can’t believe I’m going to post this. But there it is! That’s me!

Happy weekend yall!

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  • http://megsrantsandramblings.blogspot.com/ meg

    first off, congrats on the weight loss, that is extremely impressive!!
    second, American passports last for 10 years? that makes me bitter…Canadian ones only last for 5, and you have to pay $90 to get them renewed. I”m bitter about this because i just renewed mine.
    third, I hope you have fun at the fair!! Fairs are amazing. Fried butter though? Gag.

  • badassgeek

    Congratulations! You've managed to do in two years what some people struggle a lifetime with.

  • http://matthewjenks.blogspot.com/ Matt_J

    If you think YOU'RE a loser…I've never been outside of the country. Well, except for a couple of trips through Ohio. I knew an old priest who claimed that parts of Ohio weren't even parts of America. Somehow, despite his godly wisdom, I doubt that counts.

    Also…I think you've *ahem* grown past calling them “boobies”, but hey, to each her own, says I.

    Congrats on the black dress. You look faboo.

  • CarissaJaded

    Thank you!!

  • CarissaJaded

    Yeah.. I don't get this fried butter thing… I think they last 10 year.. but I dunno, I just applied and I forgot to ask!

  • CarissaJaded

    gracias. haha I'm sure there are parts of Texas that most people won't claim as part of America too. In fact I KNOW there are..

  • CandiceW

    Carissa, I am so fucking proud of you that I actually just got a little emotional and choked on my lassagna. You look AMAZING! I don't know how anyone has the willpower to lose weight. SERIOUSLY.

    And also, I went to Mexico in April and IT WAS AMAZING. GO TO THE YUCATAN!

  • SillyJaime

    Srsly, how do you go without bread?

  • http://comingsooooon.com/ Carli

    Holy shitcakes girl! That's an impressive feat and actually makes me feel a bit better that all this walking, carrying animals up the stairs, and cage fighting aren't in vein.

    I don't know anybody who's pulled anything this much awesome off without, you know, crying and barfing a lot so I have a question: Is your overall mood any different from 2 years ago?

  • http://twitter.com/insomniaclolita Andhari Sidharta

    Oh yayy, I know how that feels, and I have that kind of item too. For me it's a skinny jeans I only wear when I'm in my lowest weight lol

    anyhoo, fried butter? what's that? sounds so heavenly!

  • http://www.blogsareforlosers.com Sherri

    Congrats on the weight loss! That is so impressive and you should be extremely proud! I'll have to dig further into your blog to read about your journey. The smile in that second picture conveys SO much.

    Your weekend sounds fun and lovely and I hope you enjoy it to its fullest!

  • CarissaJaded

    aww thanks candice!

  • CarissaJaded

    Not always. Rice bread is an ok substitute, but I still have to cheat sometimes…

  • CarissaJaded

    Yeah, besides being more confident- i generally just feel better… i have a lot more energy since i started working out.

  • CarissaJaded

    i just got back.. didn't have any fried butter. i think its just pretty much a fried biscuit with a piece of butter in the middle. I never even got to see any, i was a little disappointed.

  • CarissaJaded

    i haven't written too much about it. Im still kinda touchy about it sometimes.. but it does feel nice to talk about! Thanks Sherri!

  • http://www.theinternalmakeover.com/ kathryn

    Oh, honey! You look just beautiful! Congratulations…I'm sure that took a lot of work and determination to achieve all you've managed to do.

    And I'm exhausted just thinking about all your plans for the weekend.

    I think I need a nap!
    have a wonderful time!!!

  • http://www.mylittlebecky.com mylittlebecky

    well, you look cute in both pictures :) but congrats on the weight loss! we were thinking about going to the fair this weekend too… can't remember if it's the last weekend open. sadly, i don't think i can eat anything there so it'd have to be just for the BIRD SHOW! (can you tell i loved the bird show when i saw it that one time?)

    ps i, for one, will never outgrow the usage of boobies!

  • http://belleandnel.blogspot.com/ Belle

    I'm SOOOOOOO proud of my BFF. 😉
    Have a wonderful weekend… and wear your black dress. Every day.

  • http://www.belleandnel.blogspot.com/ Nel

    Carissa!!!! That is SO impressive! I keep going back up to look at those pictures because it doesn't even look like the same person!! Holy crap, you're amazing.

    Did you try the fried butter?

  • http://en-gb.facebook.com/carissajade Carissa McAtee

    I didn’t! I was too scared.. But I had plenty of other things…

  • http://www.belleandnel.blogspot.com/ Nel

    Carissa!!!! That is SO impressive! I keep going back up to look at those pictures because it doesn't even look like the same person!! Holy crap, you're amazing.

    Did you try the fried butter?